At the ripe young age of 45, my life is finally becoming my own, I’m finally coming into my own. I’d have thought that I’d have found myself and come into my own well before this phase of my life, but so much about my life has changed in the past couple of years. When I first began this blog I’d gotten engaged and was planning my wedding, my daughter was pregnant with my (now 3 month old) grandson, and I was trying to figure out what I was doing…I had no previous experience planning a wedding and I was in no way ready to be a grandparent yet. Now it’s almost a year later and my daughter had a bouncing baby boy on July 15th, then we were married on September 8th, and life is good with lots of stuff happening on the in-between and lately.
Perhaps I should backtrack just a little. On second thought, I think I’ll just start with the beginning (not my beginning, that would take entirely too long). When I began this blog I was a bit overwhelmed with everything going on in my life: being newly engaged, planning a wedding, becoming a grandmother, home improvements, and other things. I needed to vent, to organize, to figure things out…As I began figuring things out, organizing things, and venting I realized how important it was to keep up with all that was going on. The blog, in a way, became an inspiration board/book of sorts. I also realized I needed something physical to look at (pics, etc). So I began taking pics of everything in regard to the wedding, the house, etc. For my birthday David got me a new camera because my handy-dandy Kodak Easyshare digital camera broke. I was so excited. It was a surprise, he even threw me a surprise birthday party. And he bought me a Canon Powershot SX150IS. I love my camera!!! So, Paparazzi was back in business (that’s the nickname David gave me).
Once the wedding was over I needed something to keep my busy. I suffer from ADHD and Generalized Anxiety sot he busier I am, the more outlets and activities I have the better. I need to stay busy. My son calls scrapbooking and art journaling my new obsessions, but I’ve been art journaling or smashing since I was in elementary school. I’d also like to learn how to make cards…I think handmade/homemade cards are so pretty, and I’d much rather get a handmade or homemade card or present than store bought. It’s much more sentimental, and more meaningful when someone makes you something.
Right now, though, David is in the process of getting me a car. We found the car, applied for it, and have been approved. We’ll be picking it up this evening or tomorrow morning. It is a 2000 Pontiac Firebird convertible. Sweet ass car!!! Mr. Rockstar/David is so awesome, amazing, and sweet!!!! I was looking at a few Bug’s but we found the Firebird and it is so much more a Mrs. Rockstar car! Plus, David will drive it, he wouldn’t drive the Bug. I wanted to get something he liked too. Getting car that he wouldn’t want to drive didn’t feel right to me. I’m so excited! but, is so much more than that. I’ve never had anyone love me so much that they wanted to get me a Lissa Car, something I absolutely loved and wanted. Something just for me. I’m so awed. He’s so wonderful! He makes me a better person because he’s just so absolutely wonderful I want to be better, nicer, more wonderful for him. And with him, because of his love, I am a much happier person, a more laid back person.