The car is acting up: either it needs new spark plugs, and O2 sensor, or something…A friend of ours who is a mechanic checked it out and said it needed new spark plugs to start with. We’re going to do that tomorrow, and next weekend we’re going to get him to tune it up, replace the wires, the fuel filter, etc. I’m excited about that, since I just got my car in October and I love the car I’m not real happy about stuff breaking on it. We’ve got to replace the flip up lights motor, and the driver’s side window just went off track so we need to fix that too…It’s always something.
Anyhoo, it’s Saturday night and I finally have some much needed time to myself. I am going to catch up on my blog, then read a book or watch some television or write another chapter for my book. A few hours ago I took a long hot bubble bath, shaved my hairy legs, and have been relaxing since. Mr. Rockstar picked up his daughter and they went to his parents house to hang out with them. He’ll come back later this evening and then in the morning he and his friend will attempt to fix my car 😀 (keeping my fingers crossed), and go to Lowe’s to get the right plug thing for the dryer, as well as a paint brush and rollers so can start painting the dining room and kitchen this week. Oh, and my new kitchen light fixture will be put in tomorrow. I’m excited. Mr. Rockstar’s friend is used to home repairs, and since Mr. Rockstar isn’t this gives him a chance to learn some stuff. Give Mr. Rockstar anything to do with electronics, wiring, electrical stuff and he’s good to go–he’ll have the dryer fixed, just like he fixed our stove. He’s learning, and willing to learn, and that is what is important. 😀
In a few hours he’ll be home, and I’ll feel happier just knowing he’s here, even if he goes to bed early and I’m still up. It’s funny how that works, at least to me it is, because this is the first time in my 4o something years that I’ve been in a happy, healthy relationship where my lover, spouse, significant other… is also my best friend. We truly enjoy each others company. Though I’ve missed him since he’s been gone I’ve enjoyed the quiet time, the “me time.” I enjoy being sprawled out in the recliner with my throw blanket reading a book and sipping my wine, or at the computer doing my “thing,” as he calls it. It’s nice sometimes to have a bit of time for yourself, especially when you don’t have to really think about what’s next on your “to do” list (I was ordered by him not to do anything around the house–no washing dishes, washing clothes, cleaning anything…”spend some quality time on yourself…Do whatever you want to do…Read a book, watch a movie…just do something that relaxes you.) So I have been.
Even though I’ve looked at the kitchen several times and wanted to finish doing the dishes, or clean the laundry area so that when he gets the dryer hooked up tomorrow I am ready to attack the laundry. Even though I’ve looked at my bedroom and longed to sort through more clothes so I can get rid of some more stuff so I have room–let’s face it, even if I lose the 30 pounds the Dr said I need to lose I’m probably not going to fit into some of that crap I’ve hoarded for the past 10 years, no matter how nice it is, no matter how expensive it was and how pretty it still is, no matter how much I want to fit into those size 4 jeans that were my favorite I’ll be doing really good to get back into a 6 by the summer time. And I’m okay with that. What I am not okay with is being unhealthy. Part of the problem with the weight are the tumors in my uterus (I stay bloated), but I can still lose weight and I’ll feel better once I have.
So tonight is about me. It’s about figuring out the healthiest way to lose the weight, exercise and not over do it, and be the healthiest and happiest me I can be. Tomorrow morning I start walking 😀 Tonight, however, I am enjoying my wine and my chocolate and my time to myself. I’m so thankful for my husband, who knows me so well that he knew I needed some time to myself and understood that.
*on a side note: I finished typing this and hit publish but the internet went out thanks to the weather 😦 so I’m finally getting a chance to post it.