This Daily Prompt had me smiling when I read it. Today was my day to sleep in. I’ve been up early every morning this week and the first thing I did when I woke up and realized how late I’d slept was check my email and I saw the DP. (WOW, am I obsessed? OR what!?!” Seriously though, I look forward to the writing prompts. I’m writing a novel and the writing prompts are part of what helps me get my mind focused on writing.
My list of top 5 movies is: Shawshank Redemption, A Beautiful Mind, Meet Joe Black, Jason Bourne (the first 3), and the Notebook. I’ve already written a post about A Beautiful Mind.
But today’s DP Challenge has me thinking about one of my other favorite movies.
Daily Prompt: Silver Screenby michelle w. on March 13, 2013
Take a quote from your favorite movie — there’s the title of your post. Now, write!
One of my favorite lines from a movie:
Love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can’t live without. Someone you fall head over heels for. Find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. Listen to your heart. No sense in life without this. To make the journey without falling deeply in love, you haven’t lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven’t tried, then you haven’t lived. ~ Meet Joe Black
Scene from the movie:
The first time I saw this movie I was with THE EX. I wasn’t happy. I was half in half out of love. I was angry. I was suffocating in the hypocrisy of it all. I loved but I was not truly loved in return. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I needed to get out of that relationship–it was toxic. Walking on egg shells at home, not wanting to come home. I watched it again towards the end of our relationship, about nine years later, and as I sat there watching this scene I remembered how I’d felt the first time I watched it. I wasn’t happy. I hadn’t been happy, I didn’t have that kind of love in my life, instead I had an unhealthy and unhappy toxic love.
About 2 weeks later my daughter and I moved out. I took what I could at the time and checked out of Hell and checked into a cheap motel. It would be 1 year and seven months before I’d see the love of my life, and still two more months before we’d actually talk and go out. During that almost 2 year period of time my daughter graduated from high school and started college, I lost weight, I learned to love and like myself, I learned to let go of the past and the baggage that came with that past, and I learned that real love, honest and happy and healthy love does not come at a price. You don’t have to give up or change who you are to be loved.
Once I was completely out of it I realized I’d been manipulated, controlled, and bullied. I didn’t really see it while I was in it. I didn’t really understand how I had been so blind to it. I took the time to think about what I’d done wrong. You can’t fix something that’s broken if you don’t know what’s broken. And being with someone who manipulates, controls, and bully’s means that there’s a part of you that is broken or you wouldn’t allow it in the first place. I did a great deal of soul searching. When I left the EX I felt relieved. For the first time in years I felt free. It was liberating.
But for the first few months I was a hermit. I didn’t socialize. I went to work and I came home. I spent time with my daughter and the people I encountered at work and that was it. I can look back at the time now with the clarity that came from healing and growing stronger, but when I was living it I felt lost. I felt as if I’d misplaced the real me and I was slowly but surely finding her again. I was pissed off with myself for staying in a relationship that was so unhealthy and unhappy. I was pissed off with myself for allowing myself to be manipulated, controlled, and bullied. Was I physically abused, no not really. But I was emotionally and mentally blackmailed, manipulated, and abused.
When I met Mr. Rockstar I was finally in a happy place all by myself. I knew that life held more than just unhappiness, I knew that life was filled with promise, and that life is what you make it. I had hope that loved existed out there, but I didn’t think it was for me. Then he walked up to me and we began talking and he was so honest, so nice, so generous and sincere. Towards the end of the night he said, “I think we should spend some time together,” and he genuinely meant it. He wanted to get to know me. He enjoyed my company. And believe me, since I’d gone through all I’d gone through with the EX I had changed. I was blunt. I wasn’t falling for any bullshit again and I’d learned to lay shit right out there in the open, even if it hurt someone’s feelings, it was better to be honest and risk hurting someone’s feelings than to stay quiet. But my honesty was refreshing. He appreciated it. I’d learned the hard way what happened when you stayed quiet, when you didn’t stand up for yourself, when you walked on egg shells… and I swore to myself I’d never again walk on egg shells. And I haven’t to this day. There’s no need to.
I found someone I love like crazy and who loves me back that same way. I found someone I love with immense passion and who loves me that same way. Could I live without him? Yes, if I absolutely had to. I’m a survivor. Could he live without me? If he absolutely had to. Do we want to live without each other? No.
And towards the end:
- Silver Screen – That’s All…. (beyondbeautytips.wordpress.com)
- I can’t see anything that I don’t like about you….. (soyouthinkyoucanthink.wordpress.com)