I’ve sat down at the computer several times over the past few days to write, but each time I began the mouse acted up, or the pain hit me hard, or I just felt overwhelmed by all of it: everything breaking either at the same time or back to back, like the dryer and then the washer making funny noises, the microwave a few months ago, the head light on the car, the spark plugs and wires and the coil pack, not to mention the driver’s side window that wouldn’t roll all the way up (and the windows are electric)…
And then I’m in pain almost constantly but when the shooting pains, those overwhelming pains that make me double over and it’s all I can do to stand up for a few minutes or walk to the bathroom. And forget doing dishes or cooking dinner or hanging clothes out on the line or sometimes even taking a shower because I have to stand there for a good bit of time…
You know it’s sad when you’re in so much pain you dread taking a shower even though you know it will make you feel better and you’ll feel refreshed. Well the past few days have been rough. First I got insomnia because of the pain. Then I was hurting more because I didn’t get much sleep and had to help my daughter with the baby because she had an 8-10 page paper due. I did too much, which only made the pain worse, plus the lack of sleep didn’t help. Yesterday the damn mouse for my desktop was going crazy. It kept freezing and I couldn’t do anything witout every time I turned around clicking Control Alt Delete, and that’s not a good thing. I finally gave up. Though I did manage to moderate some comments and check my email from my phone.
We had a late dinner because I didn’t feel good and Mr. Rockstar cooked dinner (red pepper and garlic creamy tomato soup with grilled pepper jack cheese and honey ham sandwishes with sweet tea–YUMMY!) I went to bed early. I slept on and off, and finally got up in the wee hours of the morning. I got up, the mouse was still misbehaving. I’d had the virus and maleware scans running overnight, which turned up nothing. So it wasn’t that. It had to be the damn mouse. I read some more. I am currently reading Kevin Nearne’s the Iron Druid Chronicles. I’m on the second book, Hexxed. I fell asleep while reading, about half an hour after I’d taken the pain medication, which I don’t really like to take. I woke up just before Mr. Rockstar got home. He got off early today so after he got home and had a cup of coffee we went to Staples and got a new mouse. I also got some colored post-it notes, some more Sharpie pens, and had the pictures from our wedding developed finally so I can make the scrapbooks for our mom’s for Mother’s Day.
When I have to go run errands it always drains me and leaves me in immense pain, and since I was in pain before we left it only got worse. But there were things to do. Mr. Rockstar got the clothes off the line while I began washing the dishes. Once he was done he took over washing the dishes so I could cook. He likes my cooking way better than he likes his own, lol! So we had Hillshire’s smoked sausage with onions and zucchini and squash with garlic and herb couscous (first time trying that), and some crescent rolls. Dinner was awesome, if I do say myself. but by the time I was finished cooking Mr. Rockstar made our plates and I made our glasses of sweet tea and I plopped my butt right on the couch and pushed the recliner lever and ate my food while I watched Criminal Minds. And tomorrow I’ll watch last night’s episode of Supernatural on the computer. I’m so happy I have a new mouse and that my computer is working :D.
I was in too much pain to sit at the computer to write, but I did my post for today’s Daily Prompt. The past few days I just haven’t been able to (because of the mouse as well as the pain). But what the past few days have taught me is that I can take a day off from things, including housework, the computer, writing, or whatever. I know that I’ll be busy next month. I have 2 scrapbooks to make, and CampNaNo starts on April 1st. I’ll make it through all of those projects, and I’ll have fun and I’ll be a stronger writer, as well as a happier person. Making scrapbooks for other people makes me happy. I like cataloging memories like that, and making it personal, and seeing the smile on their face when they look at it for the first time. My daughter began crying when she was going through the one I made for her of my beautiful grandson. I began it with pictures of her that were taken at different stages of her pregnancy and went from there. And there’s room to add more pages to it. She said it was way better than a baby book. It made me feel so good that she loved it and that it was special to her.
So as I finish putting a few last minute things together, now that my new wireless mouse is all hooked up and working, I’m ready to try to get some sleep. It’s time for me to break out the Nestle Quik and make myself a glass of chocolate milk and take another pain pill so I can try to get some sleep. Mr. Rockstar is passed out in his recliner and I need to make sure his alarm is set. He’ll wake up and come get in the bed or he’ll sleep in the recliner :D, but waking him up is really hard when he’s that tired, poor thing. I’m so thankful that I married such a wonderful, generous, caring, and loving man. He really does know me well enough to know that no matter how much pain I’m in if I can do I will do, even if it hurts. He knows me well enough to know that as soon as he saw my face when he got home from work that today was a rough day. He often fusses at me for doing too much, and that my primary job right now is to take care of his wife. Until we have insurance and I can have the surgery the pain isn’t going to go away, and all I can do is try to make it through the bad days with a smile on my face because regardless of the pain I’m in I have the love of my life, a wonderful family, awesome kids, a beautiful grandson, and amazing friends. I’m blessed and I’m thankful.
Tomorrow is a new day.